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Murmur
03:47
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Wake me, take me to the trail
Walk with my tail between my legs again
Far away we go, that secret place we know
Drench me with your soft word therapy
It won’t be the first time
Your demons can’t chase me now
I’ve dealt with worse things
You’re going down
My faults confess, you’ve made this a mess
You make my imperfections sting
What will endure, of my state found so pure
My willingness bares an end
My mistakes brought to the grave
There was laughter until every moment ceased
Too many crossed that line, I worship what is mine
Deeming every possibility
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2. |
Someone I Like To Hate
03:35
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You couldn’t kill me in this storm
Through your verbal ways or form
I’ve already died a million times
I recall the awful dreams
Got sick of your stupid fantasies
It’s all I was to you
I’m glad it’s meant to be that way
A dose of pride, it tastes so real
You’re someone I like to hate
With all of my might and love
You’re someone I like to hate
My dear, I sure owe you
Sleep with regrets and so called friends
You’re gift to lie, it never ends
Live with such dependencies
Play your extraordinary game
Another uphill climb and chase
The only thing that sets you free
I hope you’re sad and feel the same
Even after all your happy pills
Another dime for all the trust that you will trade
Keep choking on your own mortality
Your quest divine, took all the steps to plot your deed
No faith restored, keep selling your ideas.
You’re one percent of who you are
Power of suggestion got you far
Fester in denial
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3. |
Amy
04:33
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So it begins, the ladder falls
The darkest sun, docility holds broken dolls
A deeper need, through night it sailed
No conscience breathed, obedience came crashing down
We adhered to our sins
We had to run away
I wish I could be there
But I can never find the words to say, love
It has to be that way
And I would rather see them
Embrace a life that I would have betrayed, love
It has to be that way
I don’t want to be your scar
Your strength gives in, becoming frail
Grieving’s done, this reasoning has ruined it all
A simpler deed, the past exhaled
No patience streamed, a saddened tale
Your basic fear, it sees in
We had to run away
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4. |
Rusted To The Rails
03:45
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Haunting notions see your name
So consumed by disbelief I cannot phase
Would you have wanted me by your side?
Please forgive me, I’m a stranger to myself
With what I’m subjected, I feel such shame
A note to self
Underlying the things I shouldn’t have failed
Rusted to the rails
There will be a time when this nostalgia will find such sorrow
Dread the curse of things to be
Took measures worth the length of one whole century
Comes the beauty of deception
Say I’m not alone, numb me with comfort
I’m so scared for you
You faced a war, the genesis of nothing more
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Loveheavy
03:27
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Fill me up with laughter sent from another
So wound up, I hate this life undercover
You were everything
Am I the only one to face this ever day?
I don’t want to be left out in any way
Can you feel it?
Can you see this rushing through my veins?
No one, even hell can’t stop me
Soon I’ll be a star
Shoot it up, the means to an end are discovered
Cross this line, I’ll watch your steps like no other
You were everything
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6. |
Life I Choose
03:48
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Lately, by the window is where I’ve been
Triggering a smile at the thought of you
Never really found, had to turn around
Could’ve fixed things with time
With every passing breath
This is the life I choose
In any case there lies deceit
You lent your fingers my skin to do the talking
The morning breeze walked in like a need
To borrow these bones, make me stand
Well, I finally found a reason to say I don’t belong here
Wandered aimlessly, no rest or relief
Clenching to bars of moral urgency
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7. |
Problematic
03:37
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What do I get? The secrets are untold
What do I get from you? your dirty, dirty soul
I’ve nothing to lose here, no cares if I drift away
Time is already up for borrowed happiness
You’re all that you are
Letting down your barriers
You’re all that you are
Not a chance for changes
Why make things so problematic?
Filter out serenity
Providence is so dramatic
Channel this hate within me
It’s more than a scar
Why do I love the love that hurts me?
Why does it love me?
It’s strange
You can’t bare to feel alone
Gain control, let it serenade your senses
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8. |
Closer
03:35
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Debris of comfort I once had
We shared a life not meant for me, unknown
I stand guard and reach down under
The fear of what might sooth me
I don’t need your words and sympathy
I just want you here with me
Bring me one step closer
And I just wanted you to see another side of me
But I’ve got so much to lose
So kind within that hallow shell
Emblazed, you sought to use my insecurities, learned them
Each stood far, a path we’ll never know
Now thankful that it’s over
I am afraid there is nothing I can solve
Risking all I have right now
It’s so hard to fathom
How we’d start it all again
I don’t need your facts and secrecy
The sole desire I seek
Take one step
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9. |
Sound Asleep
03:51
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This marks an end
From tear drops of the mind to ashes sole
Your touch gave life
To what has now become, a crippled spine
For now, I can breath again
All I have, a lifetime filled with memories
Don’t be sorry, and thanks for watching over me
Would you believe, I couldn’t fight this on my own?
It’s here finally, thought of a better place to be
So bruised, these wings
I’m falling sound asleep
a trail of scars
Screaming at the raging wind, mad at the world
Why did it choose me?
It’s been a quiet room today, my soul a slave
Some would say
So sincere, like nothing’s wrong
Just keep making these moments last
It’s becoming too strong
stop acting like nothing’s wrong
There’s nothing else left to say
It’s time to let go, leave it behind
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10. |
Letterbox
04:16
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11. |
Life Again
03:24
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It’s here, we’ve reached the bend
The forgotten sounds, now whispers
You were my best friend, and so lovely
Why must it be this way?
If I could change the end somehow
We’d get there surely
If I could take this pain
Another chance at life again
If I could make your pain pass through me
Just to see your smile once more
Blisters to fire red
The deepest of fears descend
Things I can’t comprehend
Make you frown just to know it’s you
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Butch Gerald Ottawa, Ontario
Hi. I'm Butch. I play stuff. I write tunes. I record. Yay. The end.
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